Friday, September 21, 2007

Friend crush

I feel like I'm in middle school when I used to have like one conversation with my 'crush' per day. (It usually took place around the vendies.) I would put on my best face and try to be the 'coolest' i could possibly be, I would usually end up blushing and flustered, and probably not making a good impression, or much sense at all, but it was a 'graceful' attempt, or an attempt at least. The rest of the day I would be thinking back on that one conversation. Had I said everything I needed to? How was my body language? Did I have something on my face? Was I 'cool'?????

I'm in middle school again. I have a friend crush. Never in my life have I been plopped down across the world without a friend, and no one around me immediately in need of a friend. So my days are composed, outside of work (which is intense and takes up a good amount of time and thought), anyway, my days are composed of plotting the run in with my friend crush. There are a few of them, but I figure if I fish for all of them, hopefully at least one will bite. So what, I'm a friend slut. I'll try my best to have a funny, interesting conversation. Try not to say "what?" or "huh?" too many times (accent issues), and try to be charming, seem both professionally engaged in work, but also communicate that I'm really fun outside of the office (I am I swear!!!), but then not come off like an alcoholic (it seems as if the easiest way to say your fun is to talk about how you need a drink). Then, the rest of the day I think, how did I do? Why did I trip on the stairs, are they different heights because of the metrics system? Did I have something on my face? Was I cool???? But mainly, does she want to be my friend. Does she want to risk bringing out a random american chick into the midst of her personal life, have to babysit me, explain the sports rules to me, etc. No offense to myself, but I sure as hell wouldnt want to.

Anyway, I have a first date with my friend crush and her boyfriend tonight. We're going to the footy and I have no idea what the ball looks like. She's picking me up, should I let her pay for the cab?

2 comments:

Lena said...

I have a friend crush...on you.

Frannie Hamker said...

sami!!!!
i wish i was there to hang out with you and be your friend crush!!! i love your blog :)
xoxo
fran